Little Fish Big Fish Swimming in the Water

It was a fake construct
They said :
this is the rock
and you …”

I am the Fish

that shall bump its nose
towards the crack
which seems to lead to
the greenish clearing
illuminated by
the daylight like light
shining from above

They said I am caught in a net
We all are
They said

Tied as if
from all sides
Like a marionette

and they taught me the art of

like that

bow your head to forget
to adopt a mind _shared
from the net

so that I could become

Become the fish
they wish

in a net of dreams
from which they couldn’t escape

but how can I when
I know
since I know I am
such dream is a play of I
but the play
I isn’t

and so …
there was no reason for me to stay

I knew it right away

this ripply clinging

manifactured the imaginary sound of blinking
weaving the net

The net of fantasies
Mind born

but so I did in the end!

They are like friends to me
not knowing themselves

but we can play

What else friends are for?

(Challenging myself with
Imaginary frlends
Weavlng nets
and even with those
not knowing themselves
maybe the play enlightens a pin hole of their brain)

I became a fish
as they wish

and created a fake construct
to hack their fake construct
My fishness
a shell

which I maintain daily

Fins made of color glass
with endless cuts of reflection edges
to shine lustrous
in the depths of the deep dark

to satisfy the hum-drum only
dawning the shallowness of these ever planning objective minds
made of the words
of the bump of an empty shell
which they think is the fish they most wish

They were the bait to serve to their glamorous fish hole
of their own creation

At least there will never be famine
in the fish land
until they wake up

Title inspired by lyrics

PJ Harvey’s ‘ Down by the River’



To your call I wake up
Walk in the dark
Through what should be a window or glass
I knew it was

There is a memory supporting the theory
of the past or of yesterdays
but not for the part :
“I saw you through”

this you
hiding behind
what could be a cloud

unseen like the glass

shining jewel
Illuminating round
glaring light
with cheeks

Persisting about the hereness
Becoming my eyes
and my heart
expanding majestic

The glitter before the manifestation of an object
You are I that looks through and sees
You are I which I understand deeply
Through a moment
observing duality

Observing yeah
duality yeah
Who? me?

In my body
Tired but shocked from seeing such …

Ready to embrace you again in my arms
and forgive
for the first and the last time

only knowing heals

It is not belief that heals it is the knowing
belief always comes with its opposite
belief can only exist with its counterpart
belief and unbelief therefore – both the same
Same as all counterparts
These mean duality
Duality means being in exile- separate from the truth of the self
Belief is though useful for those who do not know themselves
Those who do not know themselves believe in something and/or someone
Always something else
Always someone else than the self
and it is useful teaching and exercise for those on the path of knowing the self

because if you need to check
The palace will collapse
once you hesitate…
Hesitate means a test
Hesitate means a check
a double-check
On the single mountain path at the top towards the crest
You can’t hesitate you are the mountain there you become the crest
Thoughtless wordless

There is no hesitation for knowing
There are no double checks to knowing
There are no lookbacks for knowing
There are no tests to knowing
cause knowing is
Always content
Knowing is the light manifesting summer in winter
Knowing is the light that contains all history
Knowing is the light of you in all as I
Knowing is I

Fix me Milady!

My refrigerator is angry
It makes sounds so grumpy

because I left the door open for hours!

As a sign to prove me
I have been so greedy

“Bring me
Bring me
the repairman

His Cries
remind me

I actually don’t need a repairman
I can fix it with one of my eyes
Resembling those of Blinky

Mischievous are these moments
growing magic at tip of my Pinky

but I won’t

Could do so
if I wanted to …

but I won’t

because in my role of the kinda softly temperate Milady
things should be as they are supposed to be
then again

For this act



Mudra of a smile … :)

Who is this beauty!
Who is this lover!
this body with me

through your eye
I can travel

like rays


towards an
amaranthine Crest

along which She dances

in the arms
his ecstasy
and whirls

dissolving double

of becoming


Oh    for love only

and   for love only

such        an

along three worlds

which I peacefully watch

with a mudra

a smile

but AA YEA!)

my Cheshire cat smile 🙂

in me
with your aura  

pervading my skin

such smile
can only be kindled
by your distant
touch of love

color of the heart
to lift me
to a knowledge


for A  living on a ❤ star

Goodnight Kiss

I have never seen such a star before!

It shines
by and to
the sides of my eyes
but only until I’d look up
to see it Fully

It has never been there maybe!

or is it its nature to just disappear
and because I look up ?

or are we
playing a game of
kika boo
to test
a rhyming faith?

which could
become a melody
to the lines of darkness
uncloaking us

once or thrice
does not seem to matter
to the form of my observation

sheltering in a multicolored ice

Catch this subtle point of luminosity
Now ! – If you can

and once you have it
Set it free
or Stay there
as if meditating on headstand
and clear your mind

before night diffuses into light
and shines through a crystal
with a hidden star inside

I cannot prove If eyes are not be made of its
and only a deluded mind  -Alas !

such useless
doubt of difference
of the other
by the other
about the other

And the other
always and only
in the corridors of beliefs
and thought-constructs

Is it not pointless
Trying to catch
a star
in daylight ?

and sometimes recklessly
at the tip of my nose
makes me giggle just
as if a sexy tickle
at a mystic corner
on a lover’s lip
longing for its kiss variant

I look down again
Tired of the silly mind game
Just to feel it by my side
A sweet friend
A sweet love
Made of my trust
Only appears
to the side of my eyes
So what!
A needle tip sized glitter
Living only
in the reflection of the reflection
of a night sky
Shining on my window
behind which I hide now

I dated two robots yesterdays

I dated two robots yesterdays
Both were programmed to service me well
We did things
In the same
good old
learned order
of doing things
And after sunset
we kissed
at the beach
With one –
our feet touching
With the other –
our view inviting
the rush of salty waves
Both robots could suddenly
not speak
One even bluffed
he had a virus in throat
AI intelligence?!
jaa ha ha
The other was hanging just with
With variations of
what do you feels
Tell me your fantasy s
‘Don’t think
tell me whatever comes first’ s

I believe
I say
Mine is what he can’t understand
His’ is
I think a drink on the beach
But unfortunately I don’t drink
Using coconut biotica only
These days

While they chatted so well!
Without any error of a word to spell!

I dated two robots yesterday
That sighed only to say
I can’t believe I am holding yous
How much I missed yous
Hugging robots
Vibrating robots
Robots with small mouth and twister tongue
Ready to penetrate into mine at a slightest chance of an opening
A disguised disgust of my sincere failure
not towards the robot but myself
Hiding you still under my palate
from where the soma of your love drips
Now as if forcefully been replaced
to a taste of this preprogrammed chatalike

Have they lost their voice because of my best dress
or maybe the fantasy of the sandy bikini
which they will never see
in the dark wherein
Both hiding their face
But I see
By my loose body parts
Maybe a lookalike
But I ain’t no robot

Oh my sandy bikini
Oh Chosen so carefully
To rejuvenate their fantasy
a different pattern for each-
yes. I do take care of that!
Stays now
as an Everly Brothers’ dream
In my mind only

My ‘okey ‘ is an ensuring
‘yes yes’ the Indian way
Of course
They did their best
For the zest
That obviously still can break china hearts
I took it as a test
To get to know me better
Let me be broken through your dream
Let me cry and shake and perceive an angry cloudy color world
let my remains of china burst

I dated two robots yesterdays
while expecting for a man
Thankfully though
these are yesterdays
Today I met a true man
A gypsy
We will date sometime
Play tabla and darbuka
Drink dance and sing
And sleep
To salute the sun
early in the morning
At the beach

Rhyming I-s

Oh why do you complain so ignorantly
Oh why do you agonize so self adoringly
Oh why do you hide behind your
my -s  – cries -ties  -chimes
-spies  -guise  -why-s -hives
theorize and disguise
with vain big eyes and lip bites

why don’t you instead
and surrender just
to neutralize

so that
you can
and fly
to skies
and glorify
and get their blessings
to ionize
don’t you know yet
all elevated beings
use their wings
to alter
dimension just
while  I
and womanize
for you
so that
as we energize
our vaporized
do carbonize
that will stabilize
unionize and re-rhapsodize
the universe
with our
glorious lullabies

One Day I will be His Sweetheart

video, chords and lyrics by Alin
performed by the puppet

One Day I will be His Sweetheart 

I know a man (G)
in my heart (D)
Oh so near (C)
Oh so far (G)
There lives a man (G)
in my heart (D)
Oh so near (C)
Oh so far (G)

I pray (by) all the vowels (Em)
that I am (E)
he sheds light on (E7)

I pray (by) all the vowels (Em)
that I am (E)
he sheds light on (E7)

to illuminate (F)
this narrow path (Emadd9)

made of (A7)
made of (A7sus4)
breath (F#)

Oneday I will find my way (D)
and be his (A)
sweetheart (E)

Oneday I will be the (D)
play and (A)
fly (E)

as one Light (C)
as one Sound (D)
as one Heart (G)

I love a man (G)
in my heart (D)
Oh so near (C)
Oh so far (G)
There lives a man (G)
in my heart (D)
Oh so near (C)
Oh so far (G)